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In the name of expediency for those who are in need of immediate
healing, I chose to begin this page’s life by quoting myself. Please
check back frequently for additional information and insight. As you
read pay very careful attention to your emotional barometer. The
following thoughts may seem like something you’ve longed to hear as a
form of personal validation. They may also seem like a personalized
attack. In the latter case it’s especially important to understand your
own projection mechanisms. I am attacking no person or group of
people but only an unstable and increasingly sterile Growing Medium.
The following is excerpted from The Sparkling Lotus Flower Essence
Handbook
Copyright 2004, 2005 Sparkling Lotus Ink
“Throughout the research project I encountered people and situations
that made it heart-achingly clear there is an appreciable amount of
healing work to be done as a result of the more superficial fear-induced
and repressive aspects of the passing grassroots level application of
new age mentality. Please note that, as a result, I’ve made a
differentiation between now and then throughout this book. This
addresses the tangible change from the new age of our collective past
and the new millennium of our present circumstance.
My own fully crystallized awareness of the differentiation began during
my original draft of the Chrysanthemum profile. The flower spirits that
had codified themselves in the yellow version of this essence offered to
help me find a new degree of inner compassion for certain things that
continued to disturb me about lingering new age inter-personal
dynamics. They suggested I approach my intent of articulating a
viable prognosis by first encapsulating the new age as-it-was in the
style of a fable or fairy tale from Long Ago if not particularly Far Away.
Only one sentence from my resulting fable has been retained within the
current Chrysanthemum profile. This proved to be just one instance
when the flower spirits provided very tangible help in the writing of the
text while also keeping my personal evolutionary process in an equally
sharp focus. In fact, any time I felt myself believing this was too big
and controversial a topic for me to broach in an authentically helpful
fashion, the flower spirits of many species cheered me onward in very
constructive and illuminating ways.
Going back to the subject of an emergent new millennium form of
collective spirituality, I don't mind saying this is a form of human
potentiality in which I fervently believe. I also don't mind saying I was
at first perplexed by this unanticipated element of the research project
and the impact upon my thoughts/life in general. I wondered why I
kept meeting so many Recovering New Agers (hereafter referred to as
RNAs) when I didn't know how to help them except a long and difficult
way that made me very irritated at the ramshackle system which had
produced them. My advice tended to create impatience for certain
types of RNAs, especially if part of their dissolution-ment related to the
aftermath of addiction to spiritual-equivalent bong hits and/or quick
fixes. In that condition folks were no more overjoyed to hear about
long and difficult healing efforts than I was delighted to find myself
wading in a very murky pool of disavowed results. And, y'know.
There's always an Other side to everything. Sometimes people
genuinely do find themselves pulling a karmic/healing wild card that
equates to a bona fide quick and seemingly miraculous cure. I just
don't like to encourage another lingering new age problem - that of
attachment to the expectation that every Next Big! New! Ancient! Thing
will produce an astonishing miracle cure.
Several times a week I prayed and meditated on this matter. What
could I possibly do about the situation that would truly make a dent?
And why should I, specifically, consider myself a logical candidate to be
making that dent? Like a lot of other folks with indigenous roots I felt
I'd already done my best to make contact with hearts and minds that
were supposedly wide-open even though ongoing behavior and life
choices suggested the very opposite. This opposition is mainly visible
to its perpetrators only when their energy centers have been more
organically opened. That's the part of the energetic equation where I
found myself bound with-in a pattern of helping relative strangers, time
after time. Their vision was beginning to clear but now what?!? I kept
meeting folks right at the stage when they were just panicked and
confused enough to consider a bolt and run back into the burning barn
they’d so recently escaped. Many of my more philosophically
compatible peers wondered why I kept crashing myself into the same
brick wall. Maybe…because it was there in the first place?
Every time I wondered why me/why this task, I’d get the same answer
one way or another: Because you’re capable of it. Eventually I
developed a sense of that capability in its seedlike form. In this
process I came to realize that within my authentic acceptance of both
the task and the RNAs that continued to find me, I was confronting
evidence of symptoms of a very familiar demon in the form of post
traumatic stress syndrome. This, at least, explained the nature of my
useful previous healing awareness and innate constitutional abilities.
The thing I understood most clearly also represented the most
confusing aspect of my cumulative life choices. I had to continue to
talk and write about this matter. Doing as much was rapidly making
itself clear as a pivotal part of my dharma. I can honestly say I have
never felt as small, humbled, and utterly unequal to a task.
Quite frankly my more traditional/indigenous friends and associates
thought it was a kind of all-too-typical coyote madness to attempt the
type of bridge building efforts I was consistently driven to create.
Many declared outright that it couldn't be done - not where "pure" new
age mindset was concerned. I wasn't so sure. This is, after all, a
cultural and spiritual counter-revolution that has truly liberated untold
numbers of people on a worldwide level. How could something that
profound possibly be reduced solely to its lowest common
denominators? Surely culturally-specific spiritual communities are not
automatically bereft of such denominators and few would be
foolish/imperceptive enough to relegate the governing body’s spiritual
definition to the source/purpose/manifestation of its human underbelly.
One otherwise generous hearted person asked me pointblank (and
more than once) why I was so hell-bent to teach those who did not
wish to learn. I understood how this hands-off mentality was achieved
without wishing to embrace it. And I think my reasoning remains
sound if not simple.
I am indeed a literal and psychic half-breed. In my current lifetime of
straddling two dramatically different canoes I spent my formative years
more or less incarcerated in the white suburban working-middle class
world of the 60's & early 70's. My mother recognized that a solid
uncomprehending half of me could not remain as unresolved as my
absent father would infer it to be. I didn't look like my cousins any more
than I thought or moved like them. Oftentimes my innate sense of
humor was left at the kind of odds that cause elongated puzzled
silences around a family's holiday dinner table. My mother understood
I couldn't live just this life. She also understood I would have to make
do with indigenous ties to our local area in place of those that still wait
to be forged with the lands from my paternal bloodline. The people
she found for me, starting at a very young and tender age, became her
own fast friends. They blessed both of us with ongoing family status
that was very deeply treasured. It was also a source of incalculable
influence from the plant reading perspective. I've come to see that
serving my needs as best she could gave my mother a lot more
freedom of experience than she would have otherwise allowed herself.
I've also come to be very grateful for that. I'm even more grateful for
the inherent levels of perspective my dual status provides. And I've
learned that I'm like countless other people who do their best to walk a
good road and live by sound healing/spiritual/evolutionary principles.
That is to say, I'm living within the [inter] national economy grid so I
surely can't claim organic knowledge of a traditional indigenous
perspective no matter what I may have studied and experienced along
that vein. Nor would I want to claim such an inviolate connection since
I don't carry just one curve of cultural and genetic influence.
This truth holds an implicit absence of a single sphere of accountability
and/or healing affinity. I felt (and remain) unable to turn my back on
RNAs and a problem that grows at an exponential rate for each day it's
left so largely unaddressed. This is an undeniable karmic and
energetic truth and yet it's still commonly considered unloving or
downright mean-spirited to draw attention to the situation at the small
community grassroots level. With this type of repression perpetrated-
by-perpetrators well in place, it's really no wonder that new age
backlash is becoming, on the energetic plane, as real a consciously
cultural dis-ease as illiteracy and homelessness.
The matter of energetic clean-up & recovery work remains a difficult
subject to discuss primarily because many of those who need the most
immediate illumination and healing are still determined to see it
otherwise. I have tremendous compassion for the vast array of souls
and spirits who fight the tide of human defense mechanisms, especially
when those mechanisms have focused on a very tight circle of what
gets in and what stays outside. Please pay attention to any resistance
you may feel to this subject. Your personal relationship to the problem
and its solution is probably closely tied to the level and intensity of your
emotional response. “
PLEASE NOTE: THOSE WHO ARE RESPONSIVE TO FLOWER
ESSENCES MAY WANT TO LOOK AT THE LINKED GROUPING
FOR HEALING INSPIRATION. CONSIDER PROMPT APPLICATION
OF ANY OR ALL OF THE ESSENCES IN THIS GROUP THAT ARE
CURRENTLY IN YOUR POSSESSION.
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