taught me most clearly and powerfully during the
past nine months.
That's how long it takes to make an average baby - if there
could possibly be such a thing. It's also how long it has
taken my heart to give birth to grief over what life is currently
asking us to accept within death.
While the emotion was gestating, I didn't consciously feel
entitled to it or inclined to give in to the self-indulgence of
what it implied. I only wanted to do absolutely everything I
could to make sure that, during such a 'shadowed sunset',
Jeannine knew how completely and unconditionally her work
allowed her to be loved. I wanted to do EVERYTHING that
could be done by me specifically to help her spend this
incredibly sacred and equally terrifying portion of her life
feeling absolutely clear that she was also loved as a fiercely
chosen sister as well as being loved and remembered in a
thousand different ways by as many people, every single day,
for so many different reasons.
~~~~~~~~~
As with the rest of this website, symbolism is very important. I
may or may not elect to 'develop' this page beyond the image
of joined spirits through a combined heartbeat (channelled
through the open palms) -- LOVE encircling
Shiva in Rudra form.
Through his grace in this guise I have been able to
accomplish my ambitions where Ms. Jeannine is concerned.
May Rudra's inestimable prowess and incalculable accuracy
in the destruction of illusion, ego-imprisonment & self-deceit
clear our minds, hearts, and souls of all doubt in what we
think, speak, pray, dream, believe and reject.
Om Siva
released from the prison of humanistic archetype and dashed
expectations, he rises to his truest energetic form
of divine illumination.
Ready to meet his natural consort as she rises closer to her
corresponding form.
Until then, holding her and everyone she holds dear steady at
this incredibly potent center of vulnerability.
Om Siva
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