what Jeannine has taught me most clearly and
powerfully during the past nine months.
That's how long it takes to make an average
baby - if there could possibly be such a thing.
It's also how long it has taken my heart to give
birth to grief over what life is currently asking
us to accept within death.
While the emotion was gestating, I didn't
consciously feel entitled to it or inclined to give
in to the self-indulgence of what it implied. I
only wanted to do absolutely everything I
could to make sure that, during such a
'shadowed sunset', Jeannine knew how
completely and unconditionally her work
allowed her to be loved. I wanted to do
EVERYTHING that could be done by me
specifically to help her spend this incredibly
sacred and equally terrifying portion of her life
feeling absolutely clear that she was also
loved as a fiercely chosen sister as well as
being loved and remembered in a thousand
different ways by as many people, every
single day, for so many different reasons.
~~~~~~~~~
As with the rest of this website, symbolism is
very important. I may or may not elect to
'develop' this page beyond the image of joined
spirits through a combined heartbeat
(channelled through the open palms) -- LOVE
encircling Shiva in Rudra form.
Through his grace in this guise I have been
able to accomplish my ambitions where Ms.
Jeannine is concerned. I told her two months
ago that I could live with it very well if I was
only 'known' or blessed/loved by others for this
specific mission as a healer. I sincerely meant
that and always will. I know what it is to sit in
the lap of the goddess by embodying the
incredible honor and privilege of having her sit
in mine.
May Rudra's inestimable prowess and
incalculable accuracy in the destruction of
illusion, ego-imprisonment & self-deceit clear
our minds, hearts, and souls of all doubt in
what we think, speak, pray, dream, believe
and reject.
Om Siva
released from the prison of humanistic
archetype and dashed expectations, he rises
to his truest energetic form of divine
illumination.
Ready to meet his natural consort as she rises
closer to her corresponding form.
Until then, holding her and everyone she
holds dear steady at this incredibly potent
center of vulnerability.
Om Siva
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